Saturday, 31 August 2013

"The Swan" (not original XD)

Did you too see it, drifting, all night, on the black river?
Did you see it in the morning, rising into the silvery air
And armful of white blossoms,
A perfect commotion of silk and linen as it leaned
into the bondage of its wings; a snowbank, a bank of lilies,
Biting the air with its black beak?
Did you hear it, fluting and whistling
A shrill dark music - like the rain pelting the trees - like
a waterfall
Knifing down black ledges?
And did you see it, finally, just under the clouds -
A white cloud Streaming across the sky, its feet
Like black leaves, its wings Like the stretching light of
the river?
And did you feel it, in your heart, how it pertained to 
And have you too finally figured out what beauty is for?
And have you changed your life?

HI GUYS, it's lexie. ok, so for my first post I decided not to create an original, but just to post something that i found today that I thought would intrigue you xD what are your thoughts? It was read to us (one of the four poems) in my english class today... As soon as I read this I thought about you guys and this blog :D Personally, I enjoyed the bolded line in the poem the best...'shrill dark music' :D ahaha it just ~ well'p i hope you like, peace

Friday, 30 August 2013

One pesky being

"Do you know what I'm thinking right now?"
"What are you thinking?"
"You don't have to force yourself into doing something you don't even have to, you don't have to think of others' feeling. That is what I think."

And I wanted to ask you the same.
Do you know what I was thinking?
I was wrong and I was sorry,
and I was enraged and I was disappointed.

"What do you mean?"
"You don't have to think about me. Both of you have same interests, and I don't. Don't burden yourself to think about my feelings."

I asked myself,
Did she just say that?
I asked myself again,
Did she really think so?

I wished I didn't tell you,
but then I wished you to... I don't even know.

You said you understand,
and instantly, I understand that I made a mistake,
for not thinking before saying.
But that is because I have always tell you things.

I was wrong and I was sorry,
and I was enraged,
and I was and am disappointed.

and I know you were too,
disappointed, that is.

I have done that a lot,
I know I did.

But out of the other things,
You said those.

And what did I reply?


And then you bid your goodbye.

"I'm going to sleep."

And what did I reply?


I was wrong and I was sorry,
and I was enraged,
and I was and am disappointed,
in myself.

I wish you see this,
because I know that you know it too much,
how egoistic I can be.

This may not be the last disappointment.
This may not be the last mistake.

I want you to know, your feelings are and always will be put into account.
But this time I had overlooked, like what I did to our best friend before.

Three of us will always be best friends,
and I will try to remember that till the day my body can no longer do that.
Because forever is beyond infinite,
and I am one fragile creature.

I still sound selfish,
and I noticed.

And I am sorry for being one pesky being.

Sunday, 18 August 2013

untitled (yet)

Hectic as usual and now it's holiday (pfft!).I've got an urge to write this post because someone just ask me about this subject.Still wondering why she asked me when there's still many other people that are better than me.Basically,she just asked a question regarding studies and need some advice on it.That is the main purpose of this post,sharing some thought on education.

Most of us has ambition,right?that's good because you can focus what you want to do with your life (unlike me).Thus, i want to share some thoughts on how important it is to plan for your future.

What to consider when choosing or planning for your future is passion.Yes,i admit it's cliche as hell but it's fact.Since the dawn of mankind,this is what will people tell you every single fucking time.If you guys got a problem like i-have-no-idea-what-i-like-and-i-don't-fucking-care, like me,you can just choose (at least) something that doesn't make you feel miserable while doing it (but not recommended).From my experience,during my days in secondary school i'm an absolute idiot in Biology but fate has been drawn, i got a course that is major in Biology.I don't want to change for another course without even trying,giving up is for losers and i don't want to be one.So,with my average self-esteem i gave it a try.And yup,i'm still struggling with all those new things bung into my 15 centimeters brain.However,the knowledge obtained is priceless and worthwhile.So,it's simple as that.

Are you one of the people that really loves money than actual human being?Well then,welcome to the club.This is one of the purpose for you to study,higher education means higher possibilities of getting a job with a damn high salary.Ouh,you guys want to work and don't want to get that shit education with a corrupt system?Sure you can but this means you have to struggle more than people who has a qualification such as degree and they got a better position in a short period of time.However,this matter is more toward to subjective matter where i think it works both way.
Either you're the one that like to experience by working or you're the one that like to sit your ass down and read the damn books.All that matters when you're facing this kind of period is hard work.And who the hell said that study doesn't need to struggle with those damn assignments?!

I don't think that i need to be very specific and detailed on this matter,you all have brains,you have to use it occasionally like i do.(lulz).Think on what you want to do,plan for it well,execute the plan carefully,harness love in what you're doing (if necessary).Feel free to ask us anything regarding this subject,we will try our best to help you.DON'T forget to pray and seek the blessing from God.

Friday, 16 August 2013


I want to choke you to death
I want you to asphyxiate
I want to choke you to death
I want you to plead
I want to choke you to death
I want you struggle
I want to choke you to death
I want you white
I want to choke you to death
I want you cold
I want to choke you to death
I want to gratify my lust
I want to choke you to death
I want your flesh
I want to choke you to death
I want you dead
But it is still not enough.

Tuesday, 13 August 2013

Piece of non-nonchalance

Can I say something?
Can I say something unusual?
Can I say something unusually said?
Can I say something unusually said loudly?

It's something I want.
It's something I want you to listen.
It's something I want you to listen and embrace.

You are a fuckin- ..nevermind.